PERSONAL MUSINGS
A page in this blog where thoughts unexpressed verbally are dumped. Gentle reflections on healing, mindset, and emotional well-being drawn from real experiences. Slow living, recovery, grief, and more.
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Into the Woods Experience: Chasing Dreams and Fairy Tales
It’s two days before the date I chose for the much-awaited musical here in the Philippines. After browsing numerous Into the Woods reviews, I ended up here. I don’t know why. Maybe I am just that excited. Been a fan of musicals but I only watch them in movies, as watching musicals in theatres are expensive. The first play I watched in a theatre was a gift from my late husband, which I went to with him. It was at RCBC Makati, a musical play with Nikki Gil in it called Sweet Charity. But yeah, I will be finally watching again in a theatre, this time, alone. I am so…
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Turning 40 After Loss: A Story of Fear, Faith, and Quiet Hope
40 years of existence. I was hoping for a kaboom! A sudden shift in your existence. Life shouting, “Hooray! Welcome to life!” Because as they say, “Life begins at 40!” I’ve heard that so many times throughout the years, and I guess I believed it. Or at least, I wanted to. I always pictured turning 40 as this powerful moment. That it would feel like a celebration. A reward. A chapter where things fall into place. At this age, we’re told we should feel wiser, more confident, more grounded. We should know who we are, own our space in the world, or embracing aging gracefully, society tells us that 40…
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Slow Mornings, One Cup at a Time ☕
Picture this: it’s early, the world is still quiet, and you’ve got a warm cup of coffee in your hands. The steam rises, the aroma fills the room, and for a brief moment, everything slows down. That’s the heart of slow living—taking a pause, soaking in the small joys, and simply being present. “Coffee isn’t just coffee—it’s comfort and calm in a cup.” Why Slow Mornings Matter Coffee in the morning isn’t just about the caffeine boost. It can be a grounding ritual—a way to pause, breathe, and set the tone for your entire day. When mornings feel rushed, the chaos tends to follow. But when you start slow—even with…
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A sad day at church
Hi, blog. How are you? Missed me? So random, right? Nah! I just need to let something out, as it is too heavy today. The church announcement feels so heavy. My tears fell before our pastor finished reading his letter. It’s so much that my heart feels so sad knowing that another person is leaving. And I’m wondering, why am I crying? I looked around, and sadness was so evident on people’s faces. So our pastor for 16+ years announced his resignation at church after the service. Last year, they called him to serve in his hometown, and after a few months of praying for it, he finally decided to…
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April Fools’ Day
The first of April will no longer be an April Fools’ Day, for us, at least. I think there are no other blog titles that can suffice for what I will share this time; so be it. I am also not sure if my readers (if any) have already found this blog. The previous domain has expired, and I haven’t announced in my socials that I have a new domain. I guess it’s safe to write our story here. Yes, it was 7 months later. Am I okay? Have we moved on? No, we’re not okay. No, we haven’t moved on. I’m not even sure if I can finish this,…
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Promise, it’s the last K-drama episode (not)…
“One more K-drama episode, and I’m done.” But who are you kidding? haha Why give up? Because it has taken a bunch of my waking and sleeping hours, I thought giving up Netflix would be a good start. But I found a new app where I can watch kdramas for free! hahaha It’s not an addiction, but let’s leave it that way. When my husband passed away, the desire to watch K-dramas, along with music and snippets of Suga from BTS, grew stronger as it somehow kept me out of reality. Yes, they kept me sane, but they made me so busy that it’s affecting my daily life already. I…
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Small talk and awkwardness
Small talk, casual conversations. The… ‘Hey, how are you doing?’ ‘I’m good. You?’ ‘Yeah, feeling great too!’ or ‘Not that great…’ And then, awkward silence. Have you been in the same boat? The awkwardness. Think a hundred times before you utter a single word or a nonsensical question to break the silence. You sometimes wait for the other party to talk or keep silent until one leaves the area. Haha I thought I was weird. That it was just me who was like this. But I’m not. I saw a lot of people like this, too! Yey. haha I remember being branded as a snob because I didn’t say ‘Hi!’…
