From Breakdown to Breakthrough | Faith, Loss, and God’s Grace

From Breakdown to Breakthrough | Faith, Loss & God’s Grace — this is my story of trusting God through loss, healing, and the hardest seasons of life. There was a time when everything felt overwhelming—when grief, responsibility, and uncertainty all came at once, and I didn’t know where to begin again. As a solo parent trying to stay strong, I faced moments of breakdown I never thought I’d survive. But through it all, I experienced something deeper than strength—God’s grace carrying me, sustaining me, and slowly leading me into a breakthrough I didn’t see coming.

Posting here the testimony I just shared at church…

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Good afternoon po sa lahat

Unang una, thank you kay Lord for letting me be here today. Last week pa dapat ‘to pero hindi ako naka-attend last week, madami akong work na deadline that day.

Nagpapasalamat din ako kay Lord sa mga nagdaang araw sa paggabay at pag-iingat niya. Sa mga ganap the past few weeks, sa recognition kay Caleb, sa sunrise service and sa fellowship na meron tayo that day, sa mga naging meetings ng CAYA, Youth, and a few WOMISSOs sa pagpe-prepare for VBS, at sa napakarami pang bagay. Thank you, Lord!

When Life Breaks You: Loss, Pressure, and Uncertainty

Last week, Wednesday—April 1, marked the 3rd year of the accident. Kaya kakaiba din ang emotions ko that day. Buti na lang may work at busy kasi kung hindi, baka kung anu-ano na naman naiisip ko. And magmumukmok na naman somewhere.

So, 41 na po tayo ano. Thank you, Lord for blessing me with another year. Maraming maraming salamat po sa lahat nang bumati. The past years are the busiest years of my life. After the accident and the loss of my husband (yes, 3rd year na this April 10), hindi ko alam paano ako magsstart. Kung ako lang, pwede na din akong kunin ni Lord pero I have Caleb. May Caleb pa ako. Truthfully, hindi ko alam paano ko siya palalakihin mag-isa. Physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially.

Sustained by Grace: God’s Provision in the Everyday

But the Grace of the Lord is so sufficient that after 3 long years, nandito pa din kami. Not complete as a family but God has blessed us with family and a lot of people who help us. God has blessed me with multiple jobs that help us live comfortably. Hindi naman sa lahat nang panahon e sagana but God doesn’t leave us begging for food. More on sapat and nakakapag-share din minsan.

May mga times na gusto nang sumuko but God doesn’t allow me to dwell on those thoughts. Pag nalulungkot, may mga friends and cousins na kahit di mo sabihin eh palaging nandyan. Na para bang alam nila kung kelan ka may pinagdadaanan.

May mga times din na sobrang hindi ko na alam ang uunahin ko sa schedule ko, kaya super thank you din kay mother and sa family members, na always willing to look out for Caleb, para matapos ko kung ano man ang mga gagawin or kung kailangan ko nang magbabantay pag nasa iba’t ibang activities ako.

Trusting God’s Plan

Napapaisip din ako minsan, bakit yung iba hindi naman ganito. Nabubuhay sila na chill lang. Bakit ako laging busy, laging may ganap. Pwede bang sa bahay lang din ako? Lord kung meron kang iba na prinepare for me, okay lang ba na game na? ‘Pwede bang maging fulltime housewife? Pwedeng pa-try naman nang ibang life? And, a lot more of “Lord, pwede ba?”

Pero naalala ko, kasalanan ko naman pala. Kasi, in one of my breakdown moments, hiningi ko ‘to kay Lord. Ipinag-pray ko na maging busy. Yung bigyan niya ko nang maraming work. Yung tipong no time to think nonsense things at all. Busy to the point na ang pahinga ko lang ay ang pagtulog para makalimot. And He did grant me that prayer.

Kaya pala last year bukod sa pagiging solo parent at sa mga online jobs ko, He blessed me with another job at CCIB. He allowed me to join ministries sa church. Kahit di ko deserve. Kahit very unworthy ako, He allowed me to serve Him through GBBCC. Bonus na din yung pagiging president ng CAYA. And madami pang ibang roles sa buhay. Na minsan naitatanong ko, “Lord, kaya ko pa ba?”. And He would answer me with another task, and I take that as His “Yes, kaya mo pa. O ayan, go! Ako bahala sa’yo.”

Grabe no… kung iisipin, parang kulang pa talaga yung oras para ikwento lahat ng ginawa ni Lord sa buhay ko the past three years. Pero mukhang wala na po talaga akong time! 😅 And bigyan ko pa nang chance yung ibang gustong mag-testimony

So siguro hanggang dito na lang muna… the rest, ipo-post ko na lang—abangan niyo na lang po, parang may part 2! 😂

From Breakdown to Breakthrough + Sufficient Grace

Pero seryoso, if there’s one thing I want to leave with you tonight, it’s this: Kahit gaano kabigat, kahit gaano kagulo, kahit feeling mo hindi mo na kaya—God’s grace is always sufficient. Hindi Niya tayo pinapabayaan. Hindi man kumpleto, Hindi man madali, pero laging may provision, laging may taong ipapadala, at laging may lakas na manggagaling sa Kanya.

At kung nandito ka ngayon at may pinagdadaanan ka—kapit lang. Sa bawat luha, sa bawat pagod, sa bawat tanong na “Lord, paano ba?”—lagi Siyang may sagot. Yung faith mo kay Lord at trust sa plan Niya—yun yung anchor mo to move forward. Hindi ka nag-iisa. Hindi ka nakakalimutan ni Lord.

“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” – Proverbs 3:5-6

So ayun… bago pa ako ma-cut off—thank you po, and to God be all the glory. 🙏

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And the challenge is this: may our lives be a living testimony of how great and gracious our God is.